The year that was... 2012

As I reflect on the year that was, there isn't much to be happy about. Moving back to Australia from Hong Kong took a while to adjust to. Actually thinking about it, I never really adjusted back. I thought that upon my return everything would still be the same. That was the case, everything was still exactly the same, however, I wasn't the same. I realized that I grew out of what was. I became a person in which, I, myself did not recognize and so I really could not settle. Disappointment after disappointment, I easily became discourage. Many nights I would be the person I never wanted to be. But there was nothing out for me. It was always the same shit different day type of thing, 2 steps forward 10 steps back. How could I not be easily discouraged?
And the moment it became a reality is breaking down to my father telling him I've given up, life is hard! I became a burden to everyone that I even burdened myself. I didn't mean to create the trouble I caused I was just trying. I needed to be with people that would love me regardless, push me to endure to the end, and who would never give up on me. And that was here in Samoa with Dad and Mum.

So now that I'm here in Samoa everything seems the way it should be, never had I have ever had an unhappy moment in the case of me regretting living here. They say home is where the heart is, NO. Home is where your parents are. And that's real. Giving up a fast lifestyle of money and power for a slowed pace lifestyle of be happy with what you have really opened my eyes to making the most out of things. We barely have anything here but we make the most of what we have. But my little sisters who I adore the most, for 3 years they have endured this and yet are still happy with where they are, that's true reality of not needing materialistic things to enjoy the pleasures of life. And so it brings 2013 where I hope to grow and learn some more.

Thank you 2012 for the lessons and the self discoveries. But time and tide wait for no man, and from here, i must grow into the person i was destined to be. And hopefully be loved for.
xoxo